Forgive Me, Leonard Peacock - Matthew Quick

I read this book in one day. My internet was off though, but still I read it in one day because it was great! Leonard reminded me of myself. This is more of a rant, but anyways... When people hurt to the point of breaking... don't know how to describe it. ... It's like that part of you that was fun, loving and care free transforms into someone who is depressed and anxious all the time. I can totally understand why he wanted to kill Asher. I was bullied from 6th grade to 11th grade for being overweight, black, and shy. That is a long time for someone to endure torture. It made me a highly aware of people and their behaviors (since I was always looking over my shoulder), this caused me to become suicidal. Cause I knew deep down inside not a lot of people are truly happy. I wonder all the time what is the point in living if I'll always be unhappy. I mean, bills and i right? And not only that, but a lot of people who hurt others were fucked up themselves. Everyone just gets beaten down. The world seems to do that. One moment you have dreams, the next you realize you're no better than the cashier who scanned your groceries. That when you die, you're dead and no one remembers you or immortalizes you.


Any who...that made no sense.


I didn't like how it ended, I wish it would of ended more happy. Even though, I guess it kinda did...? I get the symbolism behind it though. I just wish it would of ended happier. 


I recommend this book to anyone who wants to go on a roller coaster of emotions. This book makes you think about your own life. Which might not be a bad thing. 


I will say it is a trigger warning. I have major depression, anxiety, and an eating disorder. I found myself getting triggered with my depression very easily. So if you have a mental illness, I encourage you to read the book, but be mindful.


<3 Bye